Life always finds its way to make things difficult sometimes!! This post is more for me to just vent about life right now and I know at the end of the day I really don't have it all that bad, but it just seems that everything piles up all at once for me and then hits me!
The other night, Claire had a fever and she was not a happy camper. Her fever lasted from about 4pm until about 2:30am - which was when she finally fell asleep. During that whole time she was crying and moaning and her little body was SO hot! Gordon finally went to bed around 1am and I stayed up with her for another hour and a half until she finally fell asleep. Since then, she is doing better with her temp, but still not sleeping!! Last night we were up again. We were actually on a date and my friend Mindy was watching the girls for me...and Claire went to bed just fine. We got home around 10:30 - stayed up a little late to visit and then when we went to bed was when Claire woke up!! WHAT?! That was around midnight and I got her up and she was warm again!! It took me until about 3am to sooth her and put her back to bed! I am exhausted!!
Another thing this week was that I had a dentist appointment and I was enjoying my cleaning when my dentist told me I have a cavity and I need to come back for a filling. What?! I am almost 30 years old and I am getting a cavity?? I also have known for a while that my wisdom teeth have been coming in, but couldn't do anything about it because I got pregnant with Claire and then I nursed her...but now that I am done I also scheduled an appointment with a surgeon to get X-Rays and then ... surgery! EEEK! Looking forward to that day- not really!!!!!!
But my biggest deal of this week was that I was finally taking action on something I noticed a while ago, but back then I was pregnant and then nursing so this was the first time I was able to address it...and my big deal is that I found a lump. I have been feeling a strange sensation in my right side of my chest and sometimes its a numbing feeling that extends all the way under and down my arm. I scheduled a mammogram for yesterday, but unfortunately, the person who scheduled me made a mistake and I my appointment had to be rescheduled to August 3. I am looking forward to finding some answers and hopefully some peace about what I have been feeling. Even just the thought of a cancerous possibility scares me. I hope and pray it is nothing.
With all of the driving back and forth to Dr appointments, I have had a lot of 'quiet' drive time to think and I have been thinking about my family and how much I love my husband. He is so wonderful and he takes such good care of me and our girls. He's been so supportive through my trials and challenges and every day I fall in love with him all over again! I love my kids. They are so beautiful to me and they make me so happy! Even though I remember life before they came when it was just me and my man, I wouldn't trade them for anything! I am truly blessed by my Heavenly Father and I am so glad I have been able to have those quiet times to reflect on my blessings and forget my trials. An old co-worker of mine once told me G.H.A.P. - God Has A Plan. I truly believe that whatever God's plan is for me, I will trust it and be blessed.
8 comments:
Hopefully you get some sleep soon Jamie. Best of luck with everything. I will keep you in my prayers.
Thanks for sharing your little motto from your friend- G.H.A.P.! I seem to keep forgetting that He does have a plan for me and my life, especially during the moment when trials are raining down upon me! But it's nice to know that we are not the only ones going through our little storms. Family and friends truly help make it easier! Thanks for helping me during my little storms!
Wow Hi-me, I hope Claire is feeling better and that you &
G-Honey have gotten some rest. As far as everything else goes, take it a day at a time. I'll keep you in my prayers. Call me anytime you need to vent. LOVE YOU!
Best of luck with everything! keep us posted.
man thats a tough week, my friend had a lump and it turned out it was a clogged milk duct. she did have to have it removed, so hopefully that is all it is.!!
Stay positive and as Christopher Robin said to Pooh, "you're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." love u! xo/c
Well, it's Friday and you've already gotten your teeth pulled and I'm sure Claire is feeling better. See...things are going well. ;) Thinking of you and hope your mammo goes well.
Thanks for inviting us to the blog. We're keeping you in our prayers and hope all is well with Claire and with your test results.
We love and miss you guys...and we wish we lived closer so our families could be closer. Maybe someday...
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